Monday, August 22, 2022
Friday, July 8, 2022
Aesthetic Radiance
I had a dream last night,
a darling in my sight.
She had decended into darkness from light,
judging from her scars I knew she had to fight.
I saw her and she came closer to hug me tight,
I tried not to but kissed her with all my might.
After the kiss she just vanished,
I looked around until I got tarnished.
It happened too soon and I lost my chance,
wanted to hold her close but life had its plans.
As I had my reasons, I knew she had hers too.
Who was this mysterious angel? I had no clue.
I thought she left me alone without a trace,
but I was wrong because I had seen her face.
I woke up to a song of love,
saw dark clouds looming up above.
Thirsting for love, hating what I did in my past,
how I could never make a relationship last.
I am broken, jealous, empty and insecure,
I am not capable of love, of that I'm sure.
With so much negativity filled in me,
I wonder how to heal this injury.
I go back in time to think,
about how i ended up at the brink.
How i thought
I gave everything I got.
I was wrong,
singing the same old song.
Life brought me back to the same place,
the orbit where stardust floats in space.
While the world spun at a faster pace,
I kept searching for her face.
It was a face of a friend I had known all along,
I wished my feelings for her weren't this strong.
Can't force myself to move on,
can't do anything to hold on.
What a weird situation I got stuck in?
How can I love another when my heart is bleeding?
Time to heal from my past is what I need.
So that over her i don't bleed.
It would be selfish of me to ask her to wait.
I know everything but it's a little too late.
Life is too short for second chances,
yet I have had so many romances,
filled with gratitude and regrets,
safely giving myself threats.
As I am nearing the end of my days,
I wish to mend my ways.
Till my last breath I will do what needs to be done.
I am only wishing to be the good that happened to everyone.
As for the girl from my dream, who is also my friend,
is closer than she seems and I will love her till the end.
She and I, both know that nothing lasts, be it love or pain.
I blame my heart, she blames the rain.
Now the only question that remains,
is if I will write a poem about love ever again?
Friday, June 24, 2022
Nobody hates me more
Take my heart, take my soul.
Take a part or take it whole.
Take my adventures and control.
Take until I have nothing at all.
Dear life, this is where I found me,
lost in the ocean of insanity.
Listening to music endlessly,
to take my mind towards ecstasy.
It feels so unreal this reality.
I am a sinner is why I feel guilty.
Just a perpetual feeling of pain,
asking me to stay in my lane,
words pouring like rain,
destroying memories in my brain.
How do I make it stop,
can they hear my thoughts.
Does it even matter or not ?
If I fly down below or crawl at the top.
What is this collective dream anyway?
Seeing nightmares during the day.
Separation, Judgement, Violence,
Hatred, War, Money, Intolerance.
A sheer lack of will power.
Something my insurance won't cover.
Lack of confidence in myself,
or a lack of self, itself.
Describing the inner existence,
doesn't even have to make sense.
Cause nobody will know,
about the ones who come and go,
about the ones that live in my head,
the ones alive and the ones that are dead.
Are we connected to another dimension,
a place with a harmonic civilization ?
I want to go there but lack transportation.
This darkness takes over my imagination.
This darkness is the lack of motivation,
that takes nothing into consideration,
not even my dinner, lunch or breakfast.
Not knowing what to trust.
If it is love or lust.
life's an option but death's a must.
To find the source of life,
that remains to be my strife.
That is the reason I write,
to show that I struggle and fight.
So in expression I find stillness
a way to live with mental illness.
Sunday, October 10, 2021
Breath Observer
When you compare your entire life to the simple process of breathing in and out. One of the many observations you'll make during this comparison is that the amount of control you have over your breath is probably the same as that over your life.
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Tuesday, July 6, 2021
How are you ?
Hi, thank you for
your interest.
for the time that
you will invest.
been eating well
getting much rest.
I am staying fit
not getting stressed.
so that virus
does not infest.
I am in between
better and best,
by my crazy
life's troughs and crests.
cannot forget
how much I am blessed.
to be able
to manifest.
all every
through self conquest.
sustainable
spirit progressed.
virtues and sins
have been confessed
acknowledging
to be addressed.
the path of our
life will congest.
to witness dreams
that were repressed.
this reality
is self professed.
too many times
I have guessed.
done the needful
grew wings, built nests.
I learnt on this
ironic quest.
lived moments that
left me impressed.
mastered facing
what I detest.
sentient cosmos
truly expressed.
universe is
taking requests
consequences
hard to digest.
I am illegal
cause when possessed
Could be reason
for your arrest
gets so hard to
keep it compressed.
eternal love
must be honest.
Injustice for
me to protest.
put my rhyming
word to the test.
sounds like the voice
of the oppressed
feels like the start
of an unrest
looks like time not
to be suppressed.
smells like goodness
stoners ingest
taste that will leave
your mind refreshed
push all buttons
that can be pressed
my lazy me
calls me obsessed.
my reflection.
banging my chest.
we are all mad
its no contest
I laugh too much
and get depressed.
the end is near
studies suggest.
the day sun will
rise from the west.






























