A Lonesome Paradise

When I feel lonely

Which I almost always do

I spend time writing

There's nothing exciting

Thoughts are frightening

Insights are enlightening

To hide or reveal

To donate or steal

To show what I am made of

or be labelled as love

How else could I explain

perceptions of my brain

When I feel lonely 

Which I almost always do

I stop what I am doing

And I think of you

I think what you'd be doing

I wish that I were with you.

Doing what you're doing

Right next to you.

It may seem clingy

May even sound cute

I don't want to presume 

I don't want to be rude

When I feel lonely 

Which I almost always do

I do what you were doing

As if it were best to continue

I believe my forthcoming

I respect all that it stands for

I take it as my warning

to make something you adore

I hope my flattery works

for my shortcomings

There is nothing worse

than facing my delusions

When I feel lonely

Which I almost always do

I look around for some fun

not meant for everyone

The task once begun

Something to be done

Counting tragedies

Zero apologies

Look around to find none

Returning to base one

What needs to be done

to its completion

Jaora, 2025

I recently went on a trip to Jaora, Madhya Pradesh. There is a huge area of land called Hussain Tekri. This is where me and few family members were put up at a place called Mehmil. The entire street has four Holy Shrines. Many people who are suffering in their life from mental and spiritual problems come hear seeking healing. I have felt the presence of a higher power, myself being in the presence of all the people looking for solace of some sort, was moved. What makes an experience worth sharing is the magnitude of relevance of the outer world to the inner self. How much of an impact the event has had on the person. The main ritual one gets to see when they're here is the loban smoke ritual which was also reffered to as "Dhuni". Where the smoke is inhaled by the ones present at the shrine. Apart from the religious point of view, there were a lots of open fileds and skies for one to see. Here are few pictures I clicked.  Hope you enjoy them.

In all fairness

About the things that I want

are the words that are said

to forgive any sins of the passed.

Let there be none left to haunt

as these words will be read

to answer any question that was asked.

With a loving reasonable heart

know that I am here for you.

How you would like to interpret

what keeps us apart

and what it would do

for us all to connect.

 As I look upon a new day

born from what may be our past

to think I know what I am doing.

Walking the walk again the same way

undertaking the very mundane task

I feel I am in control of my doings.

If I had a chance to re-do

all that I had done.

Wasn't I atleast a bit curious

to see what I would do.

When it was my turn

to out live the life that once was.