Yes, I felt pain.
It was hard
to stay sane.
I felt bad,
going through
moments that
made me sad.
Was it your fault?
Or was it mine?
Was it the situation?
Or just the time?
Is this god's
divine plan?
To see if I
do what I can't?
I fell to my knees
wished my heart
didn't beat.
Got so hard for
me to breathe.
I couldn't move,
even if i wanted to.
Felt helpless,
felt hopeless and
felt worthless.
Wanted death to
swallow me then.
Back to the
beginning again.
Am I a victim?
Or a prisoner
of my own sin?
What do I do?
Where do I go?
I seem to have
lost my path.
Will it be you
that I let go
from the depths
of my heart?
If I had to kill
a part of myself.
I wish it
wasn't you.
If you could see
what I mean.
You would know
my love is true.
Like a child
here I stand.
In this wild
And free land.
Wishing you
would understand.
However, this goes.
There is one thing,
I must know.
Love and faith
can't be forced.
This is the
truth I will
accept and
continue to grow.
Although,
this has happened
so many
times before.
Somehow
it never seems
to get old.
To find a
good person.
To love
and to be
loved in return.
Is all anyone
ever wants
but cold
betrayal awaits all,
at every turn.
Every heart
that beats
has felt the burn.
Oh Love,
your entirety
I will never
be able to learn.
To be better
than I was yesterday.
For serenity,
strength and wisdom
I pray.
Then I try
to see more
than what meets
the eye.
Not to make
anyone cry.
Never to speak
a single lie.
If our
paths divide,
I just hope to
I get to say
goodbye.
