Curious Distractions

when that bell rings
for the final time
i would have come
to pay the price
for the all things
i never done

i remember
my first
drawing competition
i had to draw
a sunset at a beach
instead i drew
what the guy
next to me
was drawing

sitting in my classroom
in wonder
i looked at
the humming bird
by the window
the way  it flew
so fast
froward and back

i was curious
what would happen,
if i pulled
the tips of the hair,
of the girl
who sat
in front of me
I found out
but was sent
out of the class

i wanted to know
what was beyond those trees
what was beyond the boundaries

fuck this

fuck is just a word
but it is an action
which can inspire to build
point of interest causing traction
the dismay in the lives
hopes and dreams are dead

then it seems extremely absurd
when life gets in motion
keep it in a guild
block and tackle all demotivation
blinded warriors in bee hives
like fecal matter are laid

voices need to be heard
all through the seven nations
nine billion souls are thrilled
a cause for an occupation
to tell all the tribes
all the things they said

flying like a vulnerable bird
in these skies of emotion
all these voids are filled
with plenty of reproductive lotion
the only source that survives
it will be well fed

heat from a buttonless shirt
leads to and follows erection
a mighty structure that killed
most fish in the ocean
but the one that thrives
lay on its death bed

I, Me, My.

silently I weep
let the silent night creep
I try to go to sleep
thinking of MY teeth
no room for the meek
this is what I seek
it will take ME to the peak
where I might get weak
then this poem I shall read
to show ME the path I lead
the one that I believe
is going to set ME free


into the cosmos or the sea
I crawl into infinity

the mud, the changes
the constant, the smoke

I see anger and envy
I see slaves of memory

freedom is very lonely
the belief is limited to ME
I have embraced this journey
have blind faith on no team
for I am standing mighty
and stooping very low
life itself fights ME
can't stand still in a flow
in between come and go
forgetting what I don't know
guarding the break of dawn
till all fear is gone

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Samara

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IK FK in rigging what is ?

Rigging is a process in 3D animation, which is basically adding controls to the model/ mesh. It uses joints or a chain of joints along the model/ mesh. These chains can be manipulated through two different processes. IK and FK are processes used during rigging a 3D character for animation. These are applied to a rig and can be switchable in a way that both can be used as per convenience. Both have their own advantages and disadvantages. IK is easier for quick posing where as FK is easier for detailed animation. A good example for the use of IK and FK in character animation would be where IK is used for showing the character grabbing a glass and FK while the character waves his/ her hand.

IK:
It stands for Inverse Kinematics, when applied to a chain of joints the motion/ position of the entire chain depends upon the child joint. Meaning the position/ movement of the child joint is independent/ free to the position/ movement of the parent joint. This method is mostly used to show animation where the end joint doesn’t follow the motion of the rest of the chain. Example: Lifting/ pushing an object, jumping over a wall while resting your hand, for legs during a walk cycle, et’ cetera.

FK:
It stands for Forward Kinematics, when applied to a chain of joints the motion/ position of the child joint is dependent on the orientation/ position of the parent joint. Meaning when the first joint in a chain is moved/ rotated, the end joint will move as well. This method is used for joint chains to show a continuous action or where the child moves according to the movement of the parent joint. It is easier to show follow through by the FK process. Example: hands in a walk cycle, rope/ string animation, whip animation, et’ cetera.

Dreams Unlimited

What dreams are?

Is it a place too far ?

A person sitting next to me?
Someone I wish to be ?

Something I wish to own ?

A classification where I would belong ?

Is it a vision ?

Is it a sound ?

Is it a scent ?

Is it a taste ?

Is it a touch ?

Is it a sensation ?

Awareness or perception ?

Why does 

it feel 

so real 

if it isn't ?

or is it ?

I had this dream 

where I saw myself scream

"Even if i can't touch you

I know you're warm and bright
I can look at you
But you don't stay
I can tell you anything
but you never reply
I see you
lots of you
but it hurts
being present
in the aura
of your beauty
you will
never be mine
my dear
summer sun"

When dreams turn into nightmares,
nightmares into reality.
I am too scared to fall asleep
and when I do,
I am too scared to wake up.

I might loose something that isn't mine.

Find something that I haven't lost.
The only thing I can do to be kind.

Be the wanderer of the valley of thoughts.
Love the mystery of my subconscious mind.
I surrender and start connecting the dots.
Between obsession and curiosity is a line
walking on which, I never exhaust.
There is no relationship contract that I signed

Yet it takes me closer, tying countless knots.

I untie them, but it gets further twined.

This life has forced it to grow at all costs.
Scared of loosing vision and being blind.

Forcing it to cross lines it hasn't crossed.
Getting closer and quicker, leaving all behind.
Not caring about all the fortunes it has tossed.
Living up to the legacy that can't be defined.
Moving towards the light that shines the most.
This force once unleashed can't be confined.

It rewinds,
replays again
and again
to make us remind
that the combined
efforts of mankind
will never be underlined
but no effort
no matter how unrefined,
ever goes undermined.
Dream on and all the stars
in the sky will align.

I would if I could

Life is speeding up ! Yes, it is . People are getting more smarter. They are stepping upon others to move forward. Apparently there is a hierarchy in the society we live in. A hierarchy based on the amount of wealth one has, the size of an individuals body/ body parts, the appearance of a person, the color of the skin, things people own,what part of the world of the world a person was born in. There is a status ladder that is made of people. This ladder is one directional, an individual can only move upwards and only by stepping onto others. If you stop moving you will become a step for others. These things are very clearly seen in the lives that we live. Although we would like to live pure and free of judgement, we all judge. We have created labels and names for these "positions". We all imagine a world where everyone is equal, living together as one. Truth is we are one but we are not equal. There is a measure of things hence placing individuals on a scale. Now as living beings we crave for love, light and life. We tend to choose and move towards these aspects of life. In our pursuit we tend to forget about the ones around us. Becoming a bit ruthless. If we let fear take over, we are moving away from what is our basic drive.

Do I have a plan to keep up with this system ? Do I even need a plan ? I came into this world without a plan and have lived all these beautiful years without being aware of such a system. Now that I see things work in a certain manner around me, I can't just turn a blind eye to all of it. There isn't much that I can do either since my actions are very limited and wouldn't change much. I can change myself and the things around me hoping to create a ripple of idealism that will take over the world.

Personally my biggest weakness here is inconsistency. If i were able to focus my energy each day everyday on doing something productive. If I can channel my time well, I will be able to create abundance not only for myself but for those around me. I will have to form habits, stop looking for short term outputs and just keep at it. When I do something for a week and then I don't see the desired result I get demotivated. This is such a wrong attitude that I have. I am going to change this behaviour about myself. It is ok even if I don't get any positive results even for the next one year. I will keep going and not give up. The world around me wants me to give up. It wants me to stop growing, I can't stop, I won't stop.

The keywords to take away from this thought pocket are:
1. Be present
2. Never give into fear
3. Time is your biggest resource
4. Never give up

Contemplating the past, imagining the future.

I have noticed something about myself lately. I was willing to show more compassion and love to a random stranger than to someone who is more close to me. I would be willing to give away money to ten people on the streets than buy something nice for a close friend. I would give priority to my friend over the girl that I loved. Why was I running away or not doing justice to the one on one relationships ? Why was i focusing my love more towards the whole rather than on the ones closer to me ? Now when I look back upon my life, this was the major reason most of my romantic relationships didn't last. Is it wrong to behave in such a manner ? If this act is a cause, what are its effects ? I would eventually start loosing people around me who have more love for me than what I have to offer. I would start gathering people who have less love for me than what I have to offer. On a short run it wouldn't make much difference, but on a long run this would either drain me out or make me really rich in what i have, as I would do more of it. Now "The Last Supper" makes more sense. The past is gone and will never come back. How do I change the present to have a better future ?

THINK. So I started thinking more and more realising that this is the endless fate for us conscious beings trapped on the planet we so dearly call earth ! I do believe it is in the nature of us humans to be perceiving towards life as we start out living and as we continue we are hurt in ways that make us more judgemental towards life. Now we must take into consideration the fact that we don't exist in isolation. Hence involving the concept of individual and whole in the judging-perceiving paradigm. Now stretch this idea over a great period of time and look at the known history, what conclusion do I draw from my thoughts ?

I believe there are beings which are superior to us humans. Superior as in more capable of doing things or to put it in simple words more evolved than we are. I think these beings were the hindu mythological gods, the greek gods, angels in the abrahamic religions and what we idolize in our pop culture as aliens. Do these entities feed on us like we feed on lower life forms ? I am not sure but i do believe that if jesus christ were real he was an off spring of a human and a higher life form. That is why he is said to be born to a virgin. That is why he had all those superior capabilities that he did. His purpose must have been to evolve the global consciousness more towards love, which he did to a great extent. His life view was like that of a child which made him likeable by others. In the time that he walked this earth the world was not acceptable towards a change. They weren't understanding enough. All the major religions talk about a second coming of their spiritual leaders. Maybe we are just preparing our world to be safe enough for the aliens to land and be in harmony with humanity, if we aren't doing that then I think we should be. We must try to eradicate the evils of hunger and poverty with the help of technology. Nature is the greatest example of abundance, we are a part of nature and are equally capable of producing enough to sustain lives for ourselves and the people around us. Once we reach this state. The aliens or higher life forms will find it safe to come and meet us if not they would pass on their gene to our species which will give us a saviour who would be able to take us into the next phase of time. For the last time this saviour "Jesus" was sent the world didn't accept him and they killed him. So hopefully this time around when a saviour does come through there must be enough love and understanding in this world that there is no violence. I am not saying we must sit and wait for a saviour or believe that we might experience something great like this during our lives. This is merely a concept I thought of for our possible future. A glimpse of what could be.

The reality that we live in today has so much violence and hatred that it will be an uphill task to move towards world peace and complete abundance. To live in a society where people do things because they like to do them not to make money or survive. We are moving closer towards a time when we humans will thrive. 

Falling in love with a bi-polar monster living in my head

Why did you set my soul on fire ?
You created this unceasing desire.
Denying me these feelings that I clearly feel.
Leaving me clueless not knowing what is real.
Now my mind can't rest.
Pushing me to be my very best.
It is in a state of constant war.
With itself behind these closed doors.
I cant seem to escape.
Why would I want to if it is my fate ?
I need help, a hand to pull me out.
I will stay silent but I want to shout.
but my ego wont let me ask for it.
Sucking out life bit by bit
for it must do this on its own.
Prove it to every muscle and bone
only then will this soul stand strong
and say that it has the right to live on.
Now I find myself standing alone.
Lost in the ruins
of my own doings.
Every contact I make
I give less than what I take.
I thought vampires were a fantasy
until you bit me.
Wishing for things to get better
I sit with my thoughts and wonder.
Was I always this monster ?
Did you just set me free ?
Was it always me ?

Marriage vs Prostitution

Romantic Relationships, affairs, hook-ups, one night stands; all these have one thing in common, sex. Marriage and prostitution which are at either end of the relationship spectrum. Sex is the driving force of life. The energy we spend during an orgasm is the energy of life that we choose to give away. That is why the french call an orgasm "little death", for that is what it exactly is.

Obviously this moment of ecstasy holds great amount of pleasure, which is why humans love it so much. If you look closer at our society and culture you will notice that it is structured around sexual intercourse. Relationships these days have surpassed being complex. They have become more of a business transaction. Who gives more and who takes more. A game where one will leave the other wanting for more. Where is the love ? How can one trust another soul ?  Of course women have an upper hand when it comes to picking a partner for casual sex but men have an upper hand when it comes to picking a partner for marriage but this article isn't about battle of the genders.

Different people live their lives differently. Me, I like going all the way or nothing at all. So when I think of relationships I feel like I am left with just two options right now. Either become a prostitute, where I get something in return for sleeping with someone or get married where I share all of me with just one person. Both of these scenarios have their own pros and cons. Advantages of being a prostitute are; not being locked down to one person, gaining a lot of material wealth, learning a lot new things through personal contact with various people, new is always better, etc. Disadvantages are  society would not agree with my lifestyle (which doesn't concern me so much), there is an exchange of energy and emotions which messes with your vibration of your soul(every time you sleep with someone your mind becomes even more disturbed), you feel low on energy(you might invest too much into someone who doesn't feel the same way about you), etc. Disadvantages of being married are; you might realize that monogamy isn't your thing, you might get bored of the person, etc. Advantages of marriage are; your investments of energy, money and love are safe, you might grow as a person and if everything works out well you might even be able to give this world your off spring.

The choices we make in our life, makes our life what it is. One must realize the true nature of the reality they live in and decide for themselves what is best for them. Living each moment fully and loving each soul wholeheartedly.

Who is going to stop you from shining.

Sometime life may rain down on you. People you love the most, might be the ones who end up hurting you the most, without even intending to hurt you. If someone chooses someone else over you, doesn't mean you aren't enough. It doesn't define who you are. Although such situations can be tough to handle. Times like these can be turned into opportunities, take all that darkness and turn it into light. Let this light radiate bright and light up the path for others to walk on. You are the colour in this black and white society. You are the rainbow in the grey sky. Don't let anyone tell you different.

Why Worry ?

If you can do something about your problem, you have no need to worry.
If you can't do something about your problem, worrying won't do you any good.

Worry is a natural instinct which occurs involuntarily. Creating chaos and confusion in our minds which reflects in our actions and eventually our lives. We must learn to identify the signs of worry as it begins. Recognize the problem and focus on the solution. Our mind is capable of overcoming great difficulties, it is capable of achieving anything we dream of. We just need to have the right focus. While facing a difficult situation or a problem, our greatest hurdle is not the problem itself rather the "worrying" that our mind goes through.

Such emotions are common and there is nothing unhealthy about a mind that worries. Many individuals get caught up in it in their day to day lives. Such things don't help us focus and do things in a calm and orderly manner. If our friend  is in such a situation where they are unable to focus on the solution, we must help them calm down and show them that there is basolutely nothing to worry about.

Don't worry, be happy.

I love you but I've chosen darkness

The endless

descend has begun.

The wait

for our destruction

has ended.

A recklessness

which can't be 

reprehended.

Being responsible

for your own

life is no fun.

Embrace black,

condemn colour,

blame everyone.

We have felt

so much,

now we feel

nothing at all.

A vehement rise.

A vigorous fall.

Surrendering to

the extremities

of insanity.

Cutting out

normalcy, balance

and harmony.

All the ideas

of how it should be,

that you held

so dear,

we forgo.

Sacrificing the identity,

dropping the ego.

Trust instincts,

do what we like,

come what may.

Be crazy,

believe nothing,

repeat everyday.

Let people say

all that they 

have to say.

Let chaos 

show us

the way.

For insanity

is our 

best defence.

Dance naked in 

society's presence.

As we loose sight

of the dreams

we built.

As we begin

to let go

of guilt.

Kneel before

the shield

of madness.

Come to

the altar

of darkness.

Spirituality ... What is ?

It is the study of the soul. It is the art of living that is taught in all the religions.

"Religion is for people who are afraid of going to hell. Spirituality is for those who have already been there." - Vine Deloria, Sioux.

In this life that we live we are in a constant process of creation of our own reality through our actions. The concept of heaven and hell are real. These aren't places that we go to after we die. these are experiences we create for ourselves during our lives. Since we are all individuals who exist as a part of a group. We need to learn a few facts pertaining our reality. These learnings will only ensure a smooth journey for the whole. We are headed somewhere in time and place. To get there in good condition is as vital as enjoying the journey.

Spirituality teaches us how we are all the same and only separated by our fears, egos, values and beliefs. It shows us how we are a part of a whole. How we are all connected. How by harming others we are doing harm to ourselves. The principle of karma, meaning how your actions towards others, whether good or bad will in turn come back to you. These teachings are essential for maintaining peace and harmony in society.

Sadly most people who can't full-fill their basic needs don't understand spirituality. They lack faith that they are a part of a whole. Giving rise to negative emotions such as envy, greed, hatred, anger and fear. We must learn to love one another without any hold-backs. We must recognize the power of truth. Only this way can we bring through an abundance of joy in this world.

Dance, Music and Islam, today.

Hang in there, My friend.

I see so much chaos in your eyes. I see this storm that refuses to settle. I see this madness that has created so much mistrust. Who is real ? Who is saying the truth ? Do they even know what they are talking about ? Making comments about how you should be living your life. They are holding on like a person who is drowning holds onto anything he/ she can get their hands on. They are the reason you are drowning. They wont let you be yourself. They will say absolutely anything. THEY: The people in your life, your friends, family, acquaintances, the faces you see day to day. How the ones we love the most hurt us the most; we hurt those the most who love us the most.

I know we fucked up, didn't do the best that we could and now it is too late.

I want you to know, that your suffering has an end. All that pain you feel in your heart will subside. This cocktail of rage and agony that you have swallowed is harming you. Spit it out, vomit if you must but please, please don't you ever worry about a single thing. You will have everything you ever wanted. You'll have more than what you needed. I am not lying, I know this because I am going to make it happen. I am going to make sure you are happy and safe wherever you are, any place on this whole wide earth and if you manage to go into space, I know you'll do fine there as well.

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Shriram Life Insurance, Cafeteria Design

Too many times working as freelancer I have faced a situation where I did not get payed after doing the work. Cheaters and liars, move fast but don't go far. I have become a little thick skinned and mentally prepared for such situations over the years. That somehow shouldn't stop me from sharing stories about high class corporate companies which screw with small timers like me.

So this tale is about Shriram Life Insurance, Hyderabad. I work with a small team of three people on interior designing projects. So we got a call from Mr. Vinay from Shriram Life Insurance asking us to redesign the cafeteria. We went there got the measurements, he told us that he wanted to increase the seating space and would like to see the design in 2D and 3D images.

I told my partners that we will ask for a small advance before we start the work. They thought that a corporate company with such high reputation would never back off from such an agreement. I had a bad feeling about this from the start. We made various designs and even made modifications according to his requirements. After receiving all the design from us, he simply stopped responding.

Such is the state of things but do-gooders(like me) need not worry about a thing. Why ? Cause, I'm eating good, Can't bring me down !!!! :D

Fire Starter Safety Kit !

With so much madness and confusion in the minds of today's generation there is a high chance that somewhere, some guy just looses his mind. He decides to have his vengeance ! He stops what he is doing. Reaches for the match box and lights up a book. He starts burning the place down. Soon there is fire all over the place. This could happen at your workplace today.

To minimise the damage as much as possible during such extreme situations we have fire safety measures used in modern infrastructures. Modern Infrastructures consist of multiple storied buildings. Equipped with electrical connection and in few cases cooking gas for all floors. These apartments have a lot of household furniture which is always at a risk of catching fire. This fire can spread and cause damage to human life, hence it is mandatory to have proper fire safety measures. Fires can start on their own due to short circuits, gas leaks, over-heating of electrical equipment, etc.

Smoke detectors must be placed on all the ceilings so that an alarm is sound as soon as the fire begins. Alarm bells must be in place in such a way that in case of an emergency the sound reaches every corner of the building. Fire extinguishers and water hose must be placed on every floor. The number of fire extinguishers and water hose must be according to the size of the floor. In case of fire one must avoid using the elevators. The bigger the area of the floor, the more staircases the building mist have. There must be arrows and markings directing the exit procedure placed appropriately on the walls and doors. Water sprinklers must be fixed on the ceiling, which get activated automatically in case of a fire.

All these equipments must undergo a regular maintenance to ensure proper functionality when needed. Lets hope there are no fires in our homes.